I have lots of time to think sometimes
which sometimes does more damage than good
What do i have?
I have love in my heart for someone, feelings that some people will never have the
privilege of feeling
It reaches the deepest parts that i have always left untouchable...in the past
I have a thousand (no exaggeration)...yes thousands of reasons why i feel this kind of
love for him
and yet i wonder why....
why does he love me???
and this is not some attempt at ego stroking...I'm not trying to cajole words of praise or
love
i just wonder why.....
Why when there is so much to choose from...there
and i am HERE
am i really like them???? destined to ruin what means most to me
annoying him with this bullshit...yeah bullshit
but the me...the damaged me ....sometimes needs to know why
am i lovable, irreplaceable, needed, wanted, cherished
does he want to see me, talk to me, need to be with me
as much as i do
why is it...he hasn't grown tired of me, fallen out of love with me, lost that desire for
me
why is it my warped sense of thought wonders at times....as i feel butterflies
yeah...i still feel butterflies after all this time....does he???
or have butterflies been replaced with nausea and boredom (sigh)
what the fuck??
what the fuck is wrong with me??
be happy with what you've got woman! Before .....
